Went back to using KORG M01 on the DS. Currently making myself some psychedelic electronica / trance / techno music. No lyrics but maybe a few female vocal SFX.
*Finally, I see that life is ultimately not worth living, even though there's good, what's bad about existing is actually far more of a concern that will never go away for anyone in any oncoming generation, almost like how it's been in the past. People make money, create babies, and what do they hope for? At some point, the world would be cluttered by a mass of poor scavengers. Money is important though, as it seems that way and it just feels "normal"? Money encourages competition and violence, never does it spark in helping every single human at the same time. All these aspects, death, betrayal, illness, hunger, struggle, awareness for danger, poverty, envy, jealousy, and yet, we must cope and try remaining happy by working hard, studying, being positive and productive? We're just rats among canon fodder while the higher ups have the cannons and canon balls who know connections to the ingredients of making cannons and powders. There's a ladder and we start at the bottom, we get halfway and start to feel life is good. To me, all this is only stupid if I decide to be in a relationship. Problems are everywhere though, people who live alone, and people who live with company. The next generation will be the same in these aspects. It's obvious. Rather just live alone to deal with my problems, not that much money or food in the planet I'll be needing, small cozy home enough for me and my stuff, and always never forgetting, to stay away from love, for we don't need love to survive, we just want love. Get rid of it for a better mindset. I could allow myself to be with the girl, but she's gotta have in mind that having kids with our DNA is stupid, so it would be no kids or spend money on a human we don't need through adoption. We just want to have a kid at this point, and through adoption, it seems we're saving an existing living human who is already troubled. Literally, that's too much drama I don't wanna get involved in. 420*
Want to read more? Well.... No.. That's enough garbage.