Oh yeah, I definitely do know what you mean honestly; like, I don't think some aspects of my past were very good, especially when I was 13 years old, I do think there are a lot of moments in my childhood I want to experience again since, well, everything was just so much more sweet, and I especially had a lot of great memories when I was 6 years old, for example; I'm 17 now tho, and while it's not much of a difference in age... then you realize how puberty hits you hard and you start feeling a lot more sad then you'd even felt before because of it
like, I dunno, I just feel a lot more depressed and just not happy at all, and because of that my life has been taking quite a few twists and turns, and I really hate that, especially since there's no way to go back to how you once were: innocent, and without caring about anything, not even how the world actually works. Seriously, the moment you start to realize how cruel the world really is, it really does a number on your brain...
Well, that's my opinion on it I guess; if it's too hard to understand, I just dunno how should I talk about this properly, so that's mostly why
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When I was about 12, I had been playing around on Youtube when I met a girl of the same age named Celeste who shared my interest in MarbleHornets (it's a creepypasta ARG - not into it anymore, but at the time I was). For weeks we would frequently talk to each other, not just about slenderman crap but about many other things as well. It was relaxing - neither of us had any real cares or worries, just nothing better to do at that age than talk about the silliest of things - no matter how pointless. I'd easily say she was my first online friend. Eventually we lost contact after she lost her Youtube channel.
So much has happened to me since then. I joined this site and spent loads of time here, met so many more people and made many more friends. I dabbled in game design. I got into programming and web development. I wrote my first songs. I found loads of new interests and....well, dropped many old interests. I've changed so much, but I've also grown a lot as well. I made tons of lifelong IRL relationships. I applied for my first jobs, learned to drive, briefly had my first girlfriend and even started a novel. I'm not the same person anymore, but that silly kid still exists deep down inside me.
I never really thought about all this though until the other day, when I looked at my ancient Tumblr page and I realized that I actually had Celeste on there (goes by a different name now). I sent her a message asking how things were and such, we exchanged social media information and spent the last couple days just .. catching up. Don't get me wrong, I was and still am really happy to see her again, but as our conversation went on and on, I just felt more and more melancholy. She too had changed a lot. She too has entirely new interests, she too had been learning to drive, she too is starting college soon.
I dunno, it just really hit me all of a sudden just how much changes in the span of only a few years and I can't help but feel kinda sad. I know I can still have loads of fun in the future still, but those good old days are over. It's all just a collection of vague memories now. I know that's a normal part of growing up, but a part of my mind just doesn't really like to grasp the fact that my memories are just that - and all that's left is the future.
Anyway, the reason I'm making this thread is not necessarily because I need help or anything like that, but I'd like others to share their "growing up" stories here as well. When was the first time in your life that you realized how much your life had changed from when you were younger? What memorable events defined your "good ol days" that are now gone? Any thoughts or feelings on the topic in general you'd like to share?
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(Note to the mods: I thought of putting this in the Reality Corner, but there are people without accounts I'd like to show this to, and it's internet-related enough that I can justify putting it here instead. Also this thread isn't really a request for advice and is more of a "post your own experiences here" so I'm not sure it fits beatifully in the RC anyway)
When I was about 12, I had been playing around on Youtube when I met a girl of the same age named Celeste who shared my interest in MarbleHornets (it's a creepypasta ARG - not into it anymore, but at the time I was). For weeks we would frequently talk to each other, not just about slenderman crap but about many other things as well. It was relaxing - neither of us had any real cares or worries, just nothing better to do at that age than talk about the silliest of things - no matter how pointless. I'd easily say she was my first online friend. Eventually we lost contact after she lost her Youtube channel.
So much has happened to me since then. I joined this site and spent loads of time here, met so many more people and made many more friends. I dabbled in game design. I got into programming and web development. I wrote my first songs. I found loads of new interests and....well, dropped many old interests. I've changed so much, but I've also grown a lot as well. I made tons of lifelong IRL relationships. I applied for my first jobs, learned to drive, briefly had my first girlfriend and even started a novel. I'm not the same person anymore, but that silly kid still exists deep down inside me.
I never really thought about all this though until the other day, when I looked at my ancient Tumblr page and I realized that I actually had Celeste on there (goes by a different name now). I sent her a message asking how things were and such, we exchanged social media information and spent the last couple days just .. catching up. Don't get me wrong, I was and still am really happy to see her again, but as our conversation went on and on, I just felt more and more melancholy. She too had changed a lot. She too has entirely new interests, she too had been learning to drive, she too is starting college soon.
I dunno, it just really hit me all of a sudden just how much changes in the span of only a few years and I can't help but feel kinda sad. I know I can still have loads of fun in the future still, but those good old days are over. It's all just a collection of vague memories now. I know that's a normal part of growing up, but a part of my mind just doesn't really like to grasp the fact that my memories are just that - and all that's left is the future.
Anyway, the reason I'm making this thread is not necessarily because I need help or anything like that, but I'd like others to share their "growing up" stories here as well. When was the first time in your life that you realized how much your life had changed from when you were younger? What memorable events defined your "good ol days" that are now gone? Any thoughts or feelings on the topic in general you'd like to share?
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