Hi there, people.
I am coming here to say goodbye. It's been a short while since my last apparition here and on Discord. As some of you know, my mother and I had an accident about 3 weeks ago, in which I slipped from a wet ladder and she broke her wrist. A week later, a neighbor dear to us, which was my deceased grandfather's wife and was in hospital, has passed away. My mother had to go into surgery five days ago, and she's unable to do home stuff, and since we're the only ones living together, I have to take care of everything here.
Not only that, you may also know about how well I go with her, or actually, how well we don't go with. The arguments, her current dependance on me, the lack of money and job, and everything else that exists to frustrate, enrage, demotivate and sadden me brought me into depression... not the first time it happens, but now it came real hard. So hard I don't talk to anyone anymore now, and don't even feel like doing any kind of hobbies or pastime. Usually I'd go play some games to fight boredom, but all I want is to sleep.
Added to all those things, and returning to the familiar issues which also affect how finances are handled here, next month I won't have internet access anymore. My options just become fewer and fewer, until I have nothing else to do. And in my current state, completely depressed, I am forced to take more heartbreaking decisions, such as abandoning SMWC and breaking my own promise of finishing SMWCP2. I don't have the strength to carry on with it - honestly, I don't see any point in carrying on with it, as it doesn't bring me any satisfaction and joy nowadays. Yeah, this is me. Breaking promises time and time again. Most of them I did in this very website... and it happens once again.
So yeah, people. Time for me to go - permanently. Thanks everybody for everything, and my apologies once again for breaking promises, and well... being who I am. Sure no one is perfect, but man, I am so flawed as a person that nothing can describe it. Stay well.
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